After exam...

Huh 2day finished Theme 2-4 exam.. Being stress for the pass 3 days with the stuff that i do not interested at all, really fan ah.. At least 2day i can rest nicely without not much interference. Afternoon after exam, i sleep for 3 hours, seems like very long din sleep that nice, last 3 days can;t really sleep well, either worry till cannot sleep or being disturbed by unnecessary disturbance.

Today quite free, just 1 2 relax my brain but still need to read my Theme 1 exam. This should be considered as the major paper for this semester and if i ruin it mean, i'll be CAM 102 again (Which i dunno possible or not).

Ok just wanna express my exam feeling and now waiting for pizza 2 eat..haha

Worries....

Huh suddenly very very very no mood at all...I Just wanna give myself a holiday 2day but just can't happen as when i sleep will feel guilty. I already have 14 years of study, this can consider my first time so stress. Never got this stress before even at INTEC. Maybe i put too much pressure on myself. Haih...Just wanna find a place where i can cry my best.. Very long time i never cry.

When paper is rolled

Try to roll a paper from one of its end to the another end. It will form a cylinder with a hollow space inside. Use it to see other people with one of the ends. When u see other, your are just focusing on some part of their body. If you look at their eye, they on the other hand can look at your eye through the other end.

Why i wanna put that analogy? Actually that is how i usually see other, i focus on their characteristic, evaluate people, their behaviour and their rountine. I always spend my time rolling paper on other. A simple plain paper, didn't mean anything until your really put some effort into roll it into a tube. In the process, of looking, don't forget that the other person you are looking is looking at you too.

This same goes to relationship, no matter which type (Love or Friendship). When you see other, the other saw u as well. When u do good to other, other will do goodness to you as well. When one day you treat ppl beside you badly, prepare that they will return you the same. As for me, i won't go the worst if not being force to do so.

Today i hurt 2 people in my vicinity. Just wanna say I'm sorry. Good Luck every1 for exam.

101%

If,
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

If,
H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K
=8+1+18+4+23 + 15+18+11 = 98%

And,
K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E
=11+14+15+23+ 12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%

But,
A-T-T-I-T-U- D-E
=1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%

THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:
L-O-V-E.O-F.G-O-D
=12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 = 101%

While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

Sickness...

Huh after writing about my Rheumatism, suddenly feel like 1 2 write about my dear.. She sick 2day with stomach pain, common cold, and Workaholic. In the morning she told me she was common cold (Flu), so i call her goto sleep as common cold need immune system to eradicate the rhinovirus. Then evening afternoon and evening she strive hard to study. Now at night ady, she look better now, but just hope that she will get better. Luckily she got eat something now. At least i no need that worry, with her empty stomach and Lau Kei dun 1 2 see doc. Aiyo, see me mah can lo, although this no-cert doc can't help much but still know little stuff about common disease la. Haha and diff is this no-cert doc have very very much love to the patient de eh.. Haha..

Now she look better in the webcam, but she still reading under the small white table lamp with room light off.. Haih Ke Lian her lah..Sick oso need study.. Wat 2 do, exam is near.. Actually i oso exam near la, just i pandai pandai bodoh a bit, always procrastinate. haha..

Apa apa lah pun, Jia You my dear, i'm always here to support u.... Thank for ur pei this few day.. Tomolo u back to Home lo. We can talk through phone but cannot webcam. Good oso, talk less then can study... JIA JIA You...

风湿 the Rheumatism

Huh after long time dealing with such a pain disease, now feel like 1 2 explore more about Rheumatism or wat we usually call Feng Shi. Dun 1 2 talk about the pathogenesis or watever about it. Just 1 2 know why i got such diseases when i'm still young and powerful in doing my stuff. Although it is not a debilitating disease, just feel pain when the weather turn cold and damp. Like 2day loh, cold and rain so sure pain.. And weird is, Last few days on right leg, now on left leg. Haih...



Basically, Rheumatism is an group of disease of that cause joint pain. I think that i got this stuff is just i got Gene for it. My mom have OA, my grandma have Rheumatism oso, which all got almost relate disease. Haih...so teruk...Didn't blame my family for passing this gene to me, is that why i choose these gene to inherit...Kah Kah Ka...

But now, i put my ankle near the radiant heater..Quite soothing and pain lessen. Haha...

After few day of 38

Huh...this few day din update my blog..Not cause i'm busy or watever but just that i very mou liu do nothing beside talking nonsense with the girls. Huh at least 2 day i read the whole night which i dunno it is good or not..Now let u all see wat we do the whole night...

TADA!!!!!

This is how crazy a medic student can be. That is the Nerve, Artery, Tendon line in the arm, forearm and hand.. Do such crazy stuff for the sake of exam that just around the corner. Haih... Luckily not learning face anatomy, if not hav to draw on face. That time need to buy cosmetic as marker pen not good for face. Haha...

Picture coming soon for the Leg...!!! Maybe tomolo or few days later..

When achieving in illusion

Recently i got back most of my exam result. Not bad to me actually cause i achieve my aim and target that i set for from the beginning of the year. I tot that being able to achieve such result i'll be the one that is very happy, but that doesn't turn out to be. Maybe winning is not important anymore to me, or just that my opponent just slack too much in this particular time. I can't consider this to be a real achievement as i just achieve when other lacking. Still remember papa said, "when you got good result, you hope your other friend got a good result as well and competition only between when you and your friend result is equally good."

Hehe...nothing 2 worry now.. Just study till the end of this semester and exam. Going back in 32 days...Happy err...

When some1 doesn't Understand

Wat will happen when u do something, other won't understand U? Keep it 2 urself of explain about it? Dunno why, 2day, i'm in doubt, izzit the thing that i keep as my principle is wrong? Wat should i do? I just want us to be happy and not end up like this. With the moment u off, ignoring me, wat should i do oh. I do watever you want, sticking to my principle between us, planning for us. Hmm...maybe it is right...I expect everything i plan to be too perfect.. I should be flexible, leaving some secret and space between. Nothing is more important than u, just wan the best from us. If that is not you wan, i leave it for u, with ur own route. I'm here waiting on ur decision..

My Malay..Yuckss.....

Huh that day talk Bahasa Malay with my Melayu friends.. U know i talk like this "Saya banyak Cepat Hari ini". Huh... that sentence from my mouth. Haih...my malay really gone bad alots...lots n lots... Xiang Tang Nian, my malay is among the top in my school, which even malay people have to admire me in speaking proper malay. I still remember that time, i can talk in fluent malay, with correct usage. I still remember where in Bahasa Melayu paper, i was among the top defecting other Malay which i'm proud about. But now,....SUCKS...I can't even command a proper malay sentence.. Haih... Wat a loser... Nvm lah...Bahasa Melayu Important??

Computer and Mylife

Hmm..yesterday some1 ask me about com stuff. I answer her "I dunno but i will learn". That is my usually answer when i dunno about computer cause i will learn it. To me anything about computer, nothing will be a hard thing for me. As long as i hav computer i can do my stuff. That why my family say i'm Techno guy. I always stick with technology no matter it is Computer, Handphone, Mp3 player..

Ok let me do a brief reflect on my computer knowledge...

I got my 1st computer on 1997 with Intel Pentium M 166MHz with 32mb of memory and the hard disk space just 3.2GB. That computer using Windows 95..I still remember 2nd day i use that computer, i corrupt it ady... until need technician to repair. I just delete some system file from it and cause windows can't start. After 1 week, i corrupt that computer again.. Oso same loh, technician come n repair by reinstall windows. This time i clever a little, i curi learn how 2 install. Third time my com corrupted, i install myself. That time need to go buy Win 95 second edittion myself and install myself. That is the starting point where i install my own windows.

After that, with my techno friend i upgrade my computer to Windows 98. On 1999 i got internet connection through dial-up. Still remember hav to goto KL to subscribe. That time i was so happy cause i can download song. That is the starting where my song collection start to expand.

With my techno friend, i start exchanging mp3, initially we use Floppy Disc to copy song but after that we figure out, taking out hardisk from computer and connect to other computer to exchange. That is much more faster as i can copy whole library of song (500 songs) at once instead of using 4-5 floppy disc for 1 song. That was the time where i start open up the CPU casing and explore the hardware inside.

After that i learn through internet on computer hardware. I buy memory and install it myself and upgrade it from 32mb to 128mb. Few years later, that computer too old for me. I buy a new computer, which i choose the hardware spec but did not assemble myself. It is Pentium 4 1.5Ghz. That computer did not last very long as that time i choose RDram which is very fast memory but less people using it causing the price to skyrocket. That time the motherboard burn out. So no choice, buy a new CPU again. This time i choose the best for my computer, I use the best motherboard at that time, ASUS-P4PE, DDRram 512MB, Pentium 4 2.8 Ghz which cost my father a lots. This 1 i assemble the whole CPU myself. That time i almost understand computer very much. No matter wat problem about computer i can solve it.

Now i'm using Toshiba Qosmio which for me among all computer is the best with it function, speed, screen and size. haha

Thick.....................

Huh look at that picture.... That ruler measured 7cm (+-1cm)...That is the notes that i need to read for the coming exam. The 1 that in the bottom is important notes.. Those in the file is oso important but just i think i have no time to read, so i just leave it there. If i got time only read those in the ring file.. Haha..everyone..Wish me good luck in reading n remembering that whole bunch of paper.. 2 weeks 2 go before exam and 36 days 2 go before back to my home country...

Wat doc write

This is wat doctor write in patient record (Example):

44yo ♀ teacher
RIF LMO/GP C ^ L) Knee Pain 2/7
BG RA 12 yrs on Methotrexate 25mg sci weekly

PHx
Allergies - NKA

Rx

FHx

SR - °IHB/Asthma/DM/epilepsi

CVS - ....

O/E
T 35°, BP 140/90, PB 112, RR 21
Flush, unusual appearance

DDx

Mx
FBC / ESR / LFT

That is outline on wat doctor will write..Any1 can infer wat are they talking?

Tired...

Huh a day full of thing 2 do..Luckily i got 2 sleep a while just now from 9-10pm. Back from lecture at 4pm then keep my Portfolio updated for submission tomolo.. Then goto Woolie for shopping.. Just buy some bread...Long time din take bread ady.. Then back home have dinner then study for while. Until 9pm feel like no mood then i hop on the bed and sleep.. Luckily i wake at 10pm and not 10am. Haha.. Study till now loh.. Just wanna finish pathology but i cannot stand anymore. Now my Erector Spinae muscle at the back very pain cause sit too long... Time to sleep...Happy 2gether...

When Denial mean Nothing...

Something funny happen recently. Two people, standing on the fence choosing or not choosing to be partner but on the other hand, people around are making assumption that they are 2gether. They are in the state of denial which no1 will think that denial will be successful as their action and doing expose themselve. Try to think of 2 people, sudden change of characteristics and behaviour.. Izzit due to nature changes of due to the partner that make that changes? Only they know about it. As people from others perspective we are just guessing from logic and law of nature. Two people talk in a room, gently and quitely, without letting other know wat they are doing, sharing their assest including MSN and changing of idea...Is there any possible that both are only friend?? Yes they do but with probablity of nearly 0.0000...1. Dun look down on that small probability, although it small it might happen...

For me, i just pat gua..Like Ji Po only lah me..Haha...Oklah sleeping time..
Btw, Congrate Malaysia, u r superb...at last we have our 1st Astronaut...ANGKASAWAN

A day full of Excitation

Huh 2day...Very exciting eh...Dun 1 2 talk about thing before evening..After i hav nap i wake up and eat then study anatomy.. Till now.. Exciting eh...Life here is so exciting till i'll scream "Boring". Huh never experience such thing before hoh? Try come to Tasmania lah.. U'll know how exciting it is.. Haha...Now 1 2 watch drama loh.. Tomolo class onlt 9-11.. Dun hope to hav exciting day tomolo.. Just normal day with normal workload and hav normal sleep.. Haha

From other perspective....

If u only have glass that can fill in 1 liter of water.. But when u only got 500ml of water. When that time you want to fill in the bottle to full, you will think that the water only can fill half of the water, so no point fill it in as it won't full. In that sense you just look at one perspective. Try to think that, if u wanna fill the bottle to full, if u fill in 500ml 1st, mean u still left another 500ml. You only left half to go. You are thinking the way round. Think the positive side which u left half more 2 go and not the only fill half.

The same principle also same apply to the way we do our work. When we are on the half way of doing something, dun feel irritated on u just finish half, think that u still only left another half to go. Jia You....Be positive when doing your works...

Tui Hou

I listen to Jay Chou song title Tui Hou which i realise i might be too fast doing the wrong thing at the wrong time. I know that the lyric is all about lover Fen Shou but i derive from other perspective. I din think from the aspect of Lover as i'm very good with my dear which no need such sad song. Just tot that in watever we do, we hav to Tui Hou.

I always tend to fight for something, but if i can tui hou and look back, and evaluate, i might reliase that all i need is very simple. I always want to hav a very very good result or get the best result compare to other, but that is just putting pressure to my ownself, learning to Tui Hou, make my life happier at least i know that Happy Life doesn;t come when u always got the highest, is that when u satify with wat u have now.

Not everything that we want, we should fight for..Sometime Tui Hou is not scare of losing or declare that u lose, it is just provide yourself more time to think. I realise, we live in the world with other people, we do not leave alone, sometime Tui Hou will make every1 life greater and happier.

Think of it, Fight with full of your energy but do have time to stay back and evaluate watever u do. Think wat you will get at the end..Happiness or Glory?

Yahoo...

2day celebrating a day which i finish all my assignment. Very happy cause from 2day i won't have any assignment to do.. Haha... Thank to myself for wasting so much of my time to do that.. Actually already procrastinate for so long ady. Haha... Now just 1 2 Nv Li study till the end of the year and go back home...Home..My homeland that hav lots of food and nice people.. Love u Malaysia....

Pray

When somebody pray to be courage, do you think god give him the courages or god give him the opportunity to be courages?

That is a phrase from the movies Evan Almighty that i watched just now. That phrase seems very nice to me as it answer lots of question about life. I use to think that there is nothing miracle by praying as thing won't happen instantaneously. But now i agree with that phrase, when u pray, god give u the opportunity to wat u pray for and it depend on how u utilise it and work hard for it. Just feel that i got lots of opportunity in my life (no matter i pray for it or not) and i really have to appreciate it. Thank god..Happy 2gether..

After exam

Past History: Study most of the notes but not well remember it
Presenting Illness: Post exam tiredness
History of presenting Illness: Headache start when in the exam room
Social History: Not relevant
Systemic Review : Mental Health

Diagnosis: Stress pain during exam referred to the shoulder muscle
Prognosis: Very bad as still have another exam..

Huh, actually just finish exam for Theme 1.. Dunno how 2 comment on that exam. Actually oso dunno how well i do oso. Get in there, so question seems ok but some the answer make me crazy. to choose between A,B,C,D,E is hard as i seems to know about it but in other perspective other option is quite convincing also. This is due to the fact that, when study just study the superficial part and not deep enough.. Haih need to spend more time remember my notes. Satisfy with wat i read and answer..The result...does it matter? Btw, hav to celebrate finish of exam.. Any1 wanna join me go Hang Kai Kai..Where 2 go 1st?

The thing that u don't need...

Huh recently TheStar is hot about organ transplant issue in Malaysia. There are 100,000 people waiting in the transplant list but only 25 donate. This depict how ignorance our society is. The selfishness that foster in every heart of human being. Just think that there are so many people pass away but not willing to donate their "will be decay" part. What is the use of bringing it to heaven (or hell) when u can't use it. In a person body, there are 2 lungs, 1 heart, 2kidney, 1 pancreas, 1 Liver which all can be donated. If each of the organs save 1 live, a people can save 7 lives.. See..Just by ignoring other and bringing something useless to decay, u r killing 7 lives. When one day u going away, think of donating..At least u bring happiness to others in your painfullness. I would one day register as Organ Donor and urge people out there 2 do so. Remember one of ur organs can help bring better live to other who is suffering.

Quote from father who son died and donate his son organ to a girl:
“Although I have lost a son, I now feel like I have a foster daughter,” he said.

When too confident and that ruin

Hmm.. 2day just finish my Theme 2-4 exam. Seems quite ok cause i can answer most of the question. Just feel that if pass few days i dun so wu liau i can answer in a better way. I just know wat they are asking this time just forgot some of the point to answer. Maybe i'm too confident that i can finish reading and remember by reading the notes Once. Now i know i can't. If i spent more time in reading maybe this will be a good paper for me also. But nevermind lah, over ady. Now just dun let the history to repeat and i need to study now.. Hmm... just hope i can answer well.. At this moment i mind the process and not the result. The result only ??/10% or 5% for this friday exam. Add up should be quite a lots but 10% min i need 5%, and 5% min i need 2.5%. That it..

Just had my dinner..I hav Nasi Lemak 2 day. No matter where i eat oso eat rice the best. Really Fan Tong...Haha..

Peeing

Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings (Teck Jian 2007)

Wat important to me

Huh i list down wat is important to me in my life..Number signify the priority..

1. Family
2. Dear
3. Myself
4. Eat
5. Sleep
6. Happiness
7. Relax
8. Technology
9. Din have ady..

Huh weird hoh? that is a list of my priority in my life. Haha maybe got something else that i dun think of. Maybe some1 will say Friends.. Tell u the truth, friend for me is just company when doing thing or when you are not with family. Some ppl without friend seems to be end of the world but for me, more or less doesn't signify anything. Cause i always have friends around me but True Friend or Good Friend seems like won't appear after secondary school. Hehe sometime i'll be selfish. That is human nature, right? For me, if the thing is not in the list above, usually i'll ignore it. And if it is in the list, any interference to them, i usually will eye for an eye.

Dun have Nap

Huh now is 8.30am of tuesday. I bath and have my cereal breaskfast ady. Din even think that i can wake up this early for no purpose.. Yesterday, i hav an evening nap from 6-8pm and that can consider as my Night sleep ady cause i din sleep till this morning at 6am. At 6am, i went out have a cup of milk, then come back in and sleep. Huh just hav a short nap then i wake up at 8am ady. Haha wat 2 do, since my body cannot sleep, i as the owner of this body oso cannot do anything so mah sit here write blog loh. Wait till my eye fall down then i goto sleep. Haha.. Btw, tomolo exam for Theme 2-4 consist of 10%.. Scare eh..

Why I'm Here...

Huh now just 1 2 start to study for my coming exam. After a day of eating just start 1 2 worry about exam. I Hav a very nice dinner 2day. I eat Prawn, Scallop, Trout Fish, Squid that cost me $23 with QY. Wat a nice dinner. Now very full but still feel like 1 2 eat. Haih... Actually now dig out my Theme 2-4 notes 2 read. I never bother about Theme 2-4 stuff until near exam. Now, totally lost...Only a few notes but the exam questions are tremendous. Look back at pass year paper let me down as lots of questions i dunno how 2 answer. Actually should say, dunno wat is the question asking oso..Try to answer this question "Outline Sarah's Culturally appropriate wholistic management plan" in which Sarah is a Indegenious People.. Wat they want from me oh? Tell u wat..Medicine is a very nice course to be in until there are Ethic and Community stuff. I dun mind learn Anatomy more...Just get rid of Theme 2-4 which is boring.....

Haha....